Some Changes
I’ve been having a period of extreme apathy towards most things I pick up again so I am focusing on setting up tools and going through my anki decks, it is easier to focus on such “mechanical” or routine things. This isn’t just about japanese either, I decided to stop doing a lot of the stuff I am in the middle of that started feeling like a chore.
マリア様がみてる 3 → this would be second time I am pausing it so I decided just to drop it. Clearly it is not grabbing me for whatever reason. I will continue from the anime.
百合オタ vol2 → I still think it is really good but I am not in the mood for fluffy cute yuri. I think it’d be a disservice to the series to force myself to continue right now, on hold.
any sort of anime goal → I still intend to finish my current watches (marimite, madoka movies, skip and loafer, doremi) but they’re not calling to me right now. Maybe I will pick up something more fast paced? Honestly what I really want to watch is the new chainsawman movie but that’s not an option.
monthly goals / tracking what I read → I can check end of year stats without tracking them so religiously. Goals and stats are useful when I need structure but I need the opposite of it right now.
trying to aim for a minimum amount of japanese a day → I generally end up doing more than 1 hour lately which is good but I really want to give myself allowance to do whatever for a while
Continuing:
fuyukuru → although I probably am not enjoying it as much as I would if I wasn’t in such a weird mood, I still like it enouhg to keep going.
ぐでたまの『資本論』 → I kind of stopped this to focus on marimite but just doing one page or two at a time with focusing on economy vocab might be fun.
social media limits → In fact I am making them stricter lol.
On another topic…
visual novels I love them as a medium and now that I setup gsm they feel like such a good way to mine new words. I also love having all the stats to look at and see progress.
Yesterday Fuyukuru was added to jiten. I had thought about requesting it but didn’t as it wouldn’t be much of use to me at this point. However, seeing its actual stats is interesting.
I have 91 percent coverage which is higher than most vns added, especially if you ignore the super short ones. This explains why the difficulty feels just right. There are occasional spikes but never for long and never incomprehensible. The difficulty is “moderate” but not sure how that is calculated. I don’t trust it too much.
Anyway this tells me to continue to aim for this sweet spot. I’ve been looking through jiten to see if there are any other vns that I am already interested in that are around 90 percent coverage. Which gave me…
- a bunch of stuff I read in english already that I don’t care enough to replay (various danganronpa, yurirei (kindred spirits on the roof), house of fata morgana)
- a short indie vn I already played that I would like to replay but its official site seems to be down (Natsu no Hi no Resonance)
- Stuff that’s waaaay too long and would take me a year at my current speed ( Sakura, Moyu., 9-nine series, muvluv series*)
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- I promised a friend we’d go through muv-luv together soon and it might get voted as a group read for our english vn club next time so I was planning to read it in english to be able to keep up, but I might try it in jp I suppose. Either way going to wait on it.
- Harumade Kururu (I like fuyukuru but idk if I can handle all the sexual content and jokes but straight this time quite so soon after it)
- several games that might be interesting but no voice option makes them not a priority ( 滅び朽ちる世界に追憶の花束を, 舐犢の玉座)
Which leaves me with…
- hanahira, a short cutesy yuri that is louded as the easiest jp vn and that people who don’t love cutesy yuri play just for the difficulty level and end up hating

- 月影のシミュラクル mystery
- Stargazer-少女は星の夢を見る- another low rated yuri vn that seems sad instead of fluffy
Anyway, I am not close to done with fuyukuru just thinking out loud / planning ahead to see if I can build any excitement for stuff. It’s also likely my coverage will change when I am done since I update jiten weekly with all mature cards.
novels I think vns and novels occupy more or less the same amount of energy level required for me. I was looking through my library and not feeling a pull towards anything, and thought to myself I wish uketsu had a new book as his stuff is dumb-fun and simple, but also intriguing enough that I want to keep going. Reading his stuff is great for my jp self esteem since I finish it so quick lol. Only to look up and see he does have a new book coming by the end of next month. A while away but I look forward to it. 変な地図
anyway just a bunch of rambling because I don’t feel like doing anything. hope I’ll be out of this mood soon.