Parts of this can be a little hard to read specifically because I relate to Yamato-kun. Our symptoms display differently, but I get it. Also on top of the “feels things too much” flavor of emotional dysregulation that we share, I tend to have a lot of empathy for fictional characters, especially ones whom I like and/or relate to. I’m confident he’ll find his place on the Sado Gold Wings, though.
(Gah, I keep wanting to call them the Golden Wings, but that’s not what it says.)
ch 5
When Yamato-kun talked about how his mother would give him chocolate to distract him/calm him down when he was younger, I imagined her tossing it at him and him snapping it out of the air like a puppy lmao
Well, he is kind of the overgrown puppy type, though.
But I’m glad his mother is on his side and tries to help him, instead of just getting mad at/punishing him like some parents will. He doesn’t want to be like this, and he doesn’t know how to manage his big emotions and his anger issues, but he does try. I’m glad he’s not completely without allies going into the story.
No but aaaaa when he didn’t feel like he’d be allowed to have any sweets and didn’t feel like he deserved any after the practice match, but then when they learned he’s super weak to sweets and they always calm him down, the boys immediately were basically like, “Guess we’ll just have to keep some on us for you, then!” My heart.
I’m also glad Taizou-kantoku doesn’t blame Yamato-kun for his injury.
ch 6
I’m not sure what I was envisioning Yamato-kun’s secret would be before, but after we got to the tournament venue and he was looking at the other teams’ banners and stuff, I figured it had to do with his old club.
Man do I hate Shiroyama JVC’s #4. (And I don’t care if it’s a little strong to hate a literal fifth-grader, but I do. I can’t water it down to “dislike;” that feels too much like lying.) Even before Yamato-kun started telling the boys about what happened, I got the feeling he would deliberately antagonize Yamato-kun until he snapped and then would act all innocent back when they were in the same club. And of course that he’d get away with it too, but I figured it was simply because the others didn’t particularly like Yamato-kun either—but it’s (at least partially) because he’s the head coach’s son! That’s even more 当たり前, then. And because Yamato-kun threw the first punch. Because it rarely matters who instigated it or how much the instigator was gunning for a physical fight or how long they’ve been antagonizing their target, it only matters who made it violent. Because people just love to “treat” the symptoms but not the cause. Because if you’re an insufferable prick and a non-violent bully, you’re harmless, but if you have something wrong with you, you need to fix it on your own yesterday and if you don’t have the luxury of being able to see a therapist for whatever reason, then, well, you shoulda thought about that before being born with a defective brain. (And how you’re expected to be endlessly patient with other people, but if you have something wrong with you, you don’t get shown even a fraction of the patience demanded of you, and no one sees anything hypocritical about it. Because if you haven’t fixed yourself, or if you slip up, then clearly you aren’t trying hard enough and thus don’t deserve squat.)
Sure, Yamato shouldn’t have punched him, but that kid was very much not innocent in it and he absolutely had it coming.
「じゃあ、4番の暴言はいいっていうのかよ!」
「でもアツシは、手は出さなかったから……」
Exactly. No one cares about bullying victims until they fight back (and not even necessarily physically like Yamato-kun did), and then they only care in the negative sense. The general lack of empathy displayed toward victims, neurodivergent folk, etc., in society is so frustrating. It kind of makes me want to cry, honestly. If the parents are gonna get all up in arms, it should be over both of them, not just Yamato-kun. But as long as that #4 isn’t the one to make it physical, it doesn’t matter to them how nasty he gets.
Anyway, this kid sounds like an attention-seeker (derogatory) and a spoiled brat of a daddy’s and/or momma’s boy, the type who’d use the fact that he’s the coaches’ son to get his way, so I wonder how many of his teammates like him or if it’s just the parents who do. —Scratch that, it seems Yamato-kun is the only one they disliked. Yeah, I kinda had a feeling.
But the Gold Wings boys seem to be completely in his corner now! ♡
And if he can keep in control during the tournament, he can have all the truffles he can eat! Just the thought of them may not be as effective a distraction as actually having one in his mouth, but food is a powerful motivator, and with Shuuya writing the word on the back of his hand in pen to remind him… Let’s hope it’ll be enough.
Halfway finished!
I just realized Sora doesn’t have the tips of his fingers taped on the cover illustration. …Why?